For two nights this week my husband and I watched a movie about Martin Luther. It is on demand if you have any interest. This isn’t the first Martin Luther movie we have seen. Not Martin Luther King just Martin Luther from whom modern Lutherans draw their name.
Martin Luther did not intend to break from the Catholic church. He only wanted to reform it. And he decried his name being used as a name for churches.
But he could never deny anything he read in Scripture. He was devoted to the Book and to Christ.
There is so much to Luther and to his story but the turning point for this man who wore out the confessional was when Scripture came alive to him. By faith alone! The righteous live by faith alone not by the number of good things they do. He set the Holy Roman Empire ablaze with this insight. It was freedom! And it could not be quieted!
How long has it been since you read a truth in the Bible that you suddenly saw as if you had never seen it before? It is astonishing when it happens, when God pulls back the curtain on our blindness!
Romans 3: 23-24
for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, being justified as a gift by His grace through the redemption which is in Christ Jesus;
For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith–and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God–
For we maintain that a man is justified by faith apart from works of the Law.
Almost 3 months ago I injured my back during physical therapy. It was diagnosed as an annular tear, a tear of the tissue surrounding the disk. I was told it would take about 2 months of rest for it to heal itself. The second month, the pain began to escalate. Last Thursday and again on Sunday I was in the emergency room with what felt like a stab to my lower back. Sudden unrelenting pain, so much so that I became panicked that it would happen again. I was afraid to stay at home by myself and Judge was afraid for me. His mother came in the mornings Monday-Wednesday before he left for work so there was no time when I was alone in the mornings. By Thursday my sense of panic began to ease and I was able to stay alone. To be honest, I am still afraid when I get out of my chair. It has been a very rough time for us.
I have another upcoming visit with my neurosurgeon and my pain clinic as well.
I have read a good bit about annular tears (while glued to my chair). They can take up to a year to heal but surgery should intervene after several months. And, they are excruciatingly painful (oh, really?)
I am tired. Tired of expecting the next attack of pain. Tired of being so preoccupied and tired of this chair. Tired of any kind of pressure to fulfill any obligation. Tired of panic.
I am going to take a hiatus from blog writing. I can’t even put two thoughts together.
Thank you for following and reading my blog. That has meant so much to me. If God brings me to mind, please keep me in your prayers. Maybe I will be able to start up the blog again soon.
In Christ’s love,